這次的紐約行將離開孩子們兩個星期,心裡亦是喜亦是憂。
從沒想過生完兩胎後的我還能繼續模特兒旅行的工作,雖說還是有接工作沒中斷過,但,能再回歸國際模特兒飛來飛去的工作軌道上就少了。
為了孩子們,曾經一度想放棄自己的這個夢想,專心的當媽媽這個角色,因為畢竟孩子的成長只有一次,能一直陪伴在他們身邊快樂成長,教育他們中文、生活作息、品德教育,這真的是用錢也買不到的。很多法國媽媽都羨慕我跟強的時間能自由掌控,不需要每天工作,能有時間陪伴孩子,但,恕不知,模特兒的工作本來就是可有可無,變化無常,好可以很好,1、2年不愁吃穿,差時也會很差,所以存款要夠足,要懂得未雨綢繆,要懂得抓時間學習提升自己,讓下一個工作來臨時的自己可以準備好。
而強,國際經紀人的角色就像是保姆一樣的照顧所有的模特兒,一下跟亞洲聯絡、一下跟歐洲電話會議、一下跟美洲email、一下跟模特視訊溝通,我都要擔心他沒時間能照顧自己與孩子們。
而且帶孩子就像7-11一樣的全年無休,不過為了愛、為了孩子的教育,什麼都願意犧牲。但,說實話,我多希望工作能多一點,不求多,因為一多就沒辦法陪伴他們!人啊!真的不能貪!魚與熊掌不可兼得,昨兒個還因為不能陪她們過復活節,只能買巧克力送他們而憂鬱了一下,但內心深處還是雀躍不已的覺得能再出去闖一闖,偶爾的透透氣,偶爾享受自己一個人的孤獨感,偶爾享受沒有孩子在身邊的思念感。偶爾享受所謂的「單身快樂」!!
而且我還是好愛這份國際模特兒工作,好愛這樣飛來飛去,也許跟從小被愛拍照的媽媽訓練當小花童、小模特兒時就開始愛上這份工作。
現在能獨自一人在紐約,就希望用工作填滿自己!這次能再次出征,真的很謝謝還一直相信我的大家、我的家人們、謝謝老公答應好好照顧兒女、我的朋友們 、謝謝我的母公司SCOUTING ONE By Jon Viatge一直相信我、謝謝紐約、邁阿密的公司 @Wilhelmina models、謝謝 @lowenstudio,謝謝你們的鼓勵與支持,我還是會繼續自己的夢,也期待下一個夢想實現!
就讓我一直活在夢里吧!別叫醒我!
This New York trip i will leave the children for two weeks, and my heart is also happy and also worried.
I never thought I could continue my modelling trip after I had finished two births. I could return to the work of flying around to do this international modeling. For the children, I once wanted to give up my dream and concentrate on being a mother. This role, because after all, children grow up only once, it’s good can always accompany them to grow up, teach them and speak Chinese with them, to live and education them by myself. This is really not changable with money.
Many French mothers admire me for being able to grow up with them with such freedom times. I do not need to work every day and have time to accompany children. However, the modeling job is dispensable and volatile. it can be very good don’t need to worry for 1 or 2 years. but when the time is not good, you must have deposits to know how to take precautions. You must take time to learn something and improve yourself.
As Jon , his international agent role is like a nanny who taking care of all the models. He talks to Asia, talks to the European for conference call, talks to the Americans, and communicates with the models. I have to worry that he doesn’t has Time can take care of our children.
And take care children is like 7-11 endless year round, but for love, for children’s education, anything is willing to sacrifice. However, to be honest, I mostly hope that my work can be a bit more, I can occasionally breathe, occasionally enjoy my own loneliness, and occasionally enjoy the feeling of having no children around me. Enjoy the so-called 「single happiness」 occasionally!
And I still love this international model work. Still loving to flies everywhere. Maybe I love this job because I was trained to be a flower girl and a little model when I was young.
This time I can go out again and I really appreciate it. I have you all who always believed in me, my families, my husband promised to take good care of children, my friends, my mother agency, SCOUTING ONE By Jon Viatge still believe in me, and thank you New York and Miami Wilhelmina Models give me working visa, let’s rock!!!! and Lowen Studio for your encouragement and support, I will continue my dream and I look forward to the next dream!
Just Let me live in the dreams!!
Don’t wake me up!
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